Abortion through the eyes of miscarriage

I went to church with my friend one night. Neither of us knew that there would be a special speaker that night. God sure did. He had me in that place on purpose.

A woman came up to tell her story of abortion. I will not lie I almost got up and walked out of the church. I had recently had a miscarriage, and tears instantly sprang to my eyes. God how can I sit and listen to the story of a woman who willingly killed her child, when I just lost my own child.

But I stayed. And I'm so thankful I stayed. Because, as hard as it was to listen to her story, I realized I could empathize with her.

She ended up marrying the man who got her pregnant, and they had more children, so she shared how hard it was to get pregnant after having the miscarriage. She also shared the guilt and shame they felt as a couple and how they had to work through that.

She shared how she wondered what that baby looked like, and ached inside knowing she had killed one of her children's siblings.

My child has a sibling in heaven too. In that moment my heart ached for her.

She shared about the reasons most women have abortions and it made my heart ache! The people that usually tell the woman to abort are the guy she's with or her own mother. The two people that should be there the most for this woman are the ones encouraging her to kill her child. An embarrassed and ashamed parent, more worried about their reputation than their grand child's life. A young man in need of direction and hope too overwhelmed by the situation looking for an easy way out.

Satan is a sneaky snake. He loves destruction, death, enmity, twisting God's words. Left with no support this woman is thrown into a flood of lies, is afraid, is confused. Satan fills her head with lies... If only this baby wasn't here life would be so much easier. It could go back to the way it was. How will you finish school, get a job, make a life for yourself alone when your boyfriend and mother won't help you. They'd love you again if there were no baby.

He doesn't tell her that she will miss that child every moment of every day for the rest of her life. He doesn't tell her that it will making trying to have a family physically and emotionally difficult. He doesn't tell her that her child is created by a loving God and knit together in her womb for a purpose.

Women will not stop aborting babies if all they hear is lies and hate. Is a miscarriage and and abortion the same? Absolutely not! But God used my miscarriage to open my eyes to loss. To give me a new perspective into a situation that I used to respond to with anger. He gave me his eyes to see that he loves me and this woman who had an abortion and died for us both.

We can march for life, we can post on facebook, we can throw scripture at them. But what these women need is God's saving grace. And if the church is just throwing anger at them how will they ever find it? The thought of abortion makes me sick but I HAVE to choose to find God's grace there. God will meet these women in their mess just let he met me in my mess.